The strangest thing happened today
and part of me wonders if it was some weird dream but it really happened. I graduated and no one in my family showed up which
was no big surprise there. I mean it would have been nice if Harrison at least showed up but as usual he was at a card game.
My internship fell through due to lack of funding so I get stuck at the morgue which is kinda creepy but it pays and it's
not like I'll be here forever and it'll look good to the med schools I apply to. So it was my first day or I should say night
since I'm working the graveyard shift and I was all alone except for the dead people which creeped me out and I got my first
delivery. All was quiet until I heard this noise and I found myself going towards the crypt and that's where the weirdness
started. I opened the door and the dead girl insie asked for my help and the day began again and I was given this chance to
save the girl Rebecca. I can't deny that it happened but I can't even begin to process this and it's not like I can tell anyone
because they'd think I was crazy and I'm wondering that myself. I mean when I was ten and at my Mom's funeral I could have
sworn she spoke to me but it never happened again until today. It's probably just some weird one shot deal and things will
just go back to normal although I'll be working at the morgue.
It happened again so I'm not sure
what to think because this is so strange it's not like I can go up to someone like say my boss Davis and ask him. I mean if
I did he'd probably call the men in white coats to come and carry me away to some padded cell. It was bittersweet because
I met a great guy the one who asked for my help named Nick but I wasn't able to save him but the little girl will live to
see her seventh birthday. I just wish both of them could have made it but he was the typical firefighter running into a burning
building with no thought of his own safety. I only knew him for a few short hours and it only went as far as a kiss but I
know I could have seriously fallen for him. So I'm wondering if this is part of my life now and if my Mom had something to
do with this but I have no clue. It's gonna be hard if this keeps happening because it gets confusing when I know what's gonna
happen and it hasn't happened yet and I certainly can't share this with anyone so I guess I'm on my own regarding this. Well
at least I found out what a creep mark is and I got my second chance to tell him off what a fool I was for ever dating him.
Now that was a day that I was so
grateful to relive. Talk about a call that I don't want with my brother getting arrested for murder. So the two of us are
in a slump in the dating scene at least Mark didn't try to get me to murder someone. I guess I'm sorta getting used to it
well as used to something as bizarre as this is that a person can get. I don't know what I would have done without Harrison
in my life. He thinks I'm crazy but I'm not exactly ruling out that theory but things ended well with no one ending up dead
So as insane as this whole thing is it did save my brother and I still think he wouldn't have killed that guy well I don't
need to worry about that because he didn't but Mer thought he would.
Ok there could be a few advantages
to these do over days because that blind date was horrible. I would have had more fun getting a root canal. Could he have
picked a more cheesey line and of course that was the extent of his genius since he used it on every girl around. So as of
this moment I am never going on a blind date ever because it's always a disaster. Well I saved the girl and the second time
around I wasn't able to take my test but a person's life was at stake and I can always take it next year. I just hope it's
the one day 'cause I know I aced it the first time around. Well I can't change that so I'll just stay where I am and help
some people along the way which isn't such a bad thing. I was just totally thrown when Davis came right out and told me that
he knows about my little secret. I have no idea what to make of that.
Actually I'm kinda relieved that
I have someone to talk to about my rewinds. He even helped me out on my latest like he's my sidekick or something. An added
bonus was my second first date with Luc went more smoothly although I had to leave. I hope Jen and Amy make it since it'll
be tough with their secret out now. High school is rough but kids can be so cruel if you're not so called normal. So it was
actually two Juliets and they were planning to run away but they decided to stay and I wish them well because that takes courage.
So Luc has some definete boyfriend potential so I'll keep my fingers crossed because of the weirdness in my life which leads
to me having to leave at the drop of a hat.
Well I finally took a day off and
it's totally deserved too especially with those eight day weeks so I decided to throw a housewarming party. Ok so I've been
here for six months but I'm a busy girl. Just my luck it turns into one of those days. In an ironic twist of fate it was my
ex who was in need of my help. I'm just relieved I wasn't the one who killed him 'cause for a while there it was looking like
I did it since he was in my bedroom. I'm just glad things turned out the way they did and now maybe Mark will get the hint
and stay out of my life. I was so happy when Luc showed up because I hated lying to him and getting into it with him over
Mark but things are good between us and I don't think it's a stretch to say that I'm falling for the guy.
Seeing Luc when I got home helped
so much because I was really down after this day. I felt like such a failure but maybe Davis was right although I would have
loved for him to survive but at least Jake got to see Bridget one more time and meet his son. This is so confusing but at
least he got what he most wanted in the world so in a way it was a good thing that the day got rewound although he wasn't
saved which would have been even better. I feel great when I save someone but it's brutal to lose them even with the second
chance I mean isn't that why I'm able to do this so I can save lives? I guess seeing Jake meet his son made me think of my
Father so I called hiim and I'll see what happens as a result. I just know that I'm happy and I'm not going to allow him to
drive me crazy anymore with who and what he thinks I should be. I'm me and that's who I'll remain so he'll have to accept
Well I'm glad that things turned
out better this time around. It was pretty hairy there for a while there it wasn't fun to have a bullet with my name
on it coming my way. I never thought that I or Davis would need saving too. I can't lose him because he's the one person that
understands my situation and Harry well he's Harry. I mean I love him but he just doesn't get it although he now believes
me but maybe in time he'll get what I'm doing here. I'm not his personal bodyguard or something because there's
no guarantee that I'd get a do over no I don't even want to go there. No what if's I'll just live in the now and if I
can help some people along the way so much the better. I'm actually sort of getting used to it I supposed.
I wasn't thrilled about going to
my reunion so just my luck I get to do it twice. I tried but Candace just wants to be a bitch but I did save her life so that
was a success and I'm glad that I was able to hand over the tiara to Judy. So the second time around went more smoothly and
Harry didn't get into a fight this time around. It was kinda cool that I was voted Queen but I felt Judy needed her chance
to shine. I'm not so sure about going to the next one because it was nervewracking and it sucked that my favorite teacher
turned out to be the killer or rather almost killer. Actually I think I kind of feel sorry for Candace because she must be
awfully lonely since it's impossible to break through the whole bitch barrier. Well I've got a great best friend in Lindsay
so it's not like I'm lacking in the friend department. All in all I'm pretty proud of what I've accomplished since high
I thought that day would never end
four times and I thought I'd be stuck in a loop doomed to repeat it over and over and over. I just wish I could have saved
both of them. It's one thing to have an extra day here and there but this was four times and Brian was driving me nuts
with his stupid song. So Luc finally fixes the sink and that rancid sandwich ends up breaking the garbage disposal. I don't
think I can deal with another one of these extra extra long days otherwise I might just go crazy. I'm probably the only person
in the world that can do this and I have no idea why I mean why was I chosen to do this. I mean it's great when things work
out and it's a happy ending but the ones I lose well I guess in a strange way this is good practice for when I become
a doctor. As much as I'd loved to I can't save everyone so I'll just save as many as I can because it makes me feel godo
knowing that I've given a person their life even if they don't know it.
Well that was the weekend from hell.
All I wanted was two lousy days with my boyfriend and I end up saving a serial killer and losing Luc. Maybe Harry had
a point about letting nature take its course. I mean up to this point the people have been worth the effort to save but with
this guy the jury's kinda out still. Is this curse gonna follow me around like this with no way to shake it when I need a
little down time? Actually I think I'd have preferred to save his victim instead since she was just some innocent girl at
the wrong place at the wrong time. Well at least Harry's back on track with Lindsay so at least one of us still has a relationship.
I have no idea how or if I can fix things with Luc. I really hate this thing sometimes because it really screws around with
a relationship since I have to be vauge and liar girl with this great guy.
Ok so I don't get the appeal of
beauty pageants. It would be nice to go somewhere and have everyone stay alive for a change. I'm just glad that I was able
to save Jackie since she was like one of the sweetest girls I've ever met and I hope she's happy with her getting engaged
and all so no one died this time around and it turns out that it was that bitchy girl that was the target sicne she was blackmailing
to get herself the crown which is so lame. I was so tempted to get back together with Luc as much as I would have loved to
he doesn't deserve to have someone that has to leave suddenly. I mean I'm still getting used to this myself so it wouldn't
be fair to be keeping secrets. It would be so easy but I can't. I don't know how any relationship can survive this.
Another one of those days and it
was a doozie. My Father pretty much confirmed that Mom had the same secret that I do. It's funny how it took Jordan dying
and needing my help to make me realize that she's actually a sweet person. Talk about a roller coaster especially coming face
to face with Mom's killer like that. Right now I'm not too hopeful about having a lasting relatinship since this calling appears
to have gotten into the way of their marriage. I don't even know if I should date because it wouldn't be fair to the other
person that's why I let Luc get away because he deserves better and I can't be that for him. Why did my life have to get so
very complicated? I'm supposed to be young and carefree and instead I'm leading a double life that I can't exactly share with
people since I'm still getting used to it and anyone else would think I'm totally insane.
Dear Diary It was one of those days
where I think it would have been better if I had stayed in bed. That reporter is so annoying she's like a dog with a bone.
Things are tough enough without her nosing around and well stalking me isn't a lie. I mean I save her life and does she even
thank me no of course not and then when I'm totally straight with her it just seems to make her more determined. I have no
idea what to do about her and if she keeps following me around like a puppy but without the cute part I don't know how I'll
help people if she's on me all the time. As if things weren't hard enough before this certainly isn't helping any. Maybe she'll
leave me alone after it sinks in at just how close she was to death which would be nice but I'm not holding my breath. I don't
know what to make of Jack since he's all over the place but who knows maybe Davis was right about him just needing some time
to settle into the swing of things.
Well that didn't turn out so well
Harrison was so proud that he was able to help me out and the girl ends up killing herself. Hard as that is maybe he'll have
a better appreciation for what I go through since it's never easy when I lose someone. So now I know why Davis knows so much
with him losing his wife and still a newlywed. I just don't understand why my Mom never told us about what she could do since
it was possible for her to pass it on to one of us and I'm proof of that. I wonder why it was me anyway. It would have been
nice to know ahead of time instead of it just happening out of the blue like it did. I don't know maybe it would have been
easier to deal with if I knew that it might happen I just don't know. Well at least I'm not alone in this because I think
I'd lose my mind if I couldn't talk to anyone about this. I really need to get a car since this can really be time consuming
running around and being a Nancy Drew.
I think I have a little better understanding
on why Mom kept this secret. A Mother will do anything she can to protect her kids. Not that I would have done what Carly
did I can't kinda understand it thought. I mean she could have just come clean instead of living eight years in fear
not able to even acknowledge her own daughter but the tabs and oh how I know what a pain in the ass a reporter
can be I can't escape my secret because it's a part of me and I guess I don't want to even though it can drive me nuts.
For every person that I save makes the price I have to pay worth it. I just hope that I can have some sort of normal
life amidst the strangeness because I don't want to be alone. I guess having a few people that I'm tight with isn't such
a bad thing sicne it shouldn't be about quantity but quality. I still don't know what to make of Jack. It was strange to see
him in like exactly the spot where Carly's body was found the first time. I'm not so sure I like him hanging out with Harrison.
It would have been nice to have
Luc as a neighbor. Well Davis was totally right about things not always being as they appear. I'm gonna have to be careful
with credit cards and stuff. Modern technology gotta love it and hate it at the same time because it makes it so much easier
with those camera phones. Well not that I'm surprised about the breakup I kinda wished things could have worked for Lindsay
and Harrison. He's a great guy and I love him and all but he isn't exactly great boyfriend material for my best friend. Maybe
one of these days he'll get his act together and find someone. I'm just glad that I got the police to Cathy in time to
catch her in the act. That must be hell to have your life turned upside down by someone who steals your identity.
I'd be pretty pissed myself if I was in Chris's place. I hope that I never am because my life is crazy enough. Whoa so Jack
thinks he can relive days too actually that could be a good thing because he'd be the one person who could really understand
what I do through. I mean D and Harry are great and all and I'm lucky to have them to talk to but it'd be different with
someone that remembers the day the first time around. I can totally get why he'd think he was crazy 'cause I've been there
Man I'm so stupid. I can't believe
I was so quick to trust Jack. It's just that it was so great to have someone that totally gets what it's like when the day
rewinds and you have deja vu conversations all day and you have to act as though it was the first time hearing everyting.
It turns out that he seems to do the exact opposite of me wanting the person to die. Now I'm thinking that when I was trying
to get into Jack's appartment building that he was trying to keep me out. I mean this poor woman thought she was dying
so she decided to kill herself and there was nothing wrong with her so I couldn't just do nothing when it would have
been such a waste. I've made up my mind that I'm gonna try and see if I can make things work with Luc. I mean you never
know how much time you have and seeing Grace mourn her lost opportunity made me realize that I can't just wait and hope
that maybe someday because it might never come. It's just so sad that Frank felt the same way and just couldn't come out and
say it since they missed their chance. Well I'm going to see what happens and who knows maybe he'll be able to deal with what
I can do and I do remember Luc and how he appreciates honesty so I'll come clean with the whole thing and just see what happens.
I can't believe that Luc's really
gone. I keep hoping that he'll call out to me so I can get the chance to save him but I know that won't happen. This is all
Jack's fault because he was so determined that I would lose someone that I love. So now I'm left alone when a great guy who
I love very much is buried in the ground at least I can take a small bit of comfort in his last words to me but that doesn't
really take the pain away. I hope I never see Jack again because I might kill him for doing this to me. And he thinks he isn't
death well if he's not then he does a damn good impression of death.